My Thoughts 

As you step into my artistic abode,

one thing you need to know,

Is that my truth is always going to show,

This is a space of vulnerability

A space of the life journey,

A space for you and me,

so please ground yourself,

and take the journey with me,

Freedom is owed to me by way of my ancestors,

By way of the God within in me,

I long for it,

For my ancestors' sake,

I strive for it,

for my sake,

My definition of freedom,

Is defined by breaking generational curses,

Exploring everything that intrigues my inner-child,

dedicating myself to myself,

trusting and letting go of control,

letting go of old beliefs and thought patterns,

I believe the Capricorn moon to my Saturn,

makes me critique myself past the truth of the matter,

should I focus on the former more than the latter,

And in the wise words of my nana,

The definition of freedom

is simply,

but more importantly,

to express myself,

(Hello, sweetheart. How are you doing? I know you go- away, but still want to say I love you and wish to you see you soon. Have a nice time. Love you)

Intro....

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Thank you God for this new chapter, 

I just hope it's really lastin, 

had me lettin go of the past and, 

led me on my path and, 

I am thankful for the day, 

You always made a way, 

even if I didn't accept the pace, 

Now I'm walkin & walkin walkin, 

to community college college, 

Howard wasn't the problem, 

had to find what was lost and,

I'm just so thankful, 

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the journey was painful, 

my blessins insane tho, 

I'm really only 19,

Expectations no one's counting, 

pressure that I'm always fighting, 

revelations always mounting, 

meditate & pray please,

see, 

I'm always tryna prove, 

just how much I can do,

between the changes and the moves, 

God's the only who approves of just me as a soul, 

view yourself the way God knows, 

relax & find peace in growth, 

take it slow, 

Expect the best, 

had to change my mindset from "fear and it's a test", 

to clarity and rest,

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Life's too short, 

feel my rapport, 

get lost in the chords, 

together let's transform

{X2}

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Life's quite a story right, 

A plot we all tend to fight, 

smooth sailing, 

not quite, 

let go and we'll be alright, 

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Change is guaranteed,

like the falling of the leaves, 

from the vines of a growing tree, 

to settle in the earth beneath, 

to make soil for new seeds, 

does the earth grieve or does she meet?

Life is death, rebirth, repeat {X2}

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Outro...

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(Well, hi Tiffany. This is your grandmother and I just called to say hello and see how you're doing and I know you're doing well so I'll talk to you some other time. Love you, goodnight)

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It's hard to stay in the present, 

when everyday you've been tested,

Can you stand with the pressure, 

~woah~

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Gotta know I'm on my path, 

Have faith when shit don't last, 

God don't think it dirty, I ast', 

We're all on the same damn cast, 

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As a Black women,

I see this world's blemishes and beauty all at the same time, 

and if you'd be inclined, 

to look further yon' the corner is the divine, 

and all around you is its smile, 

waiting to be admired, 

I thought God was a white man prior, 

you see him everywhere, 

not much is requires, 

you start to think god is what you desire, 

from that god I feel expired, 

from my God shouldn't I be inspired, 

Hell, I'm just a writer, 

wanting to see God with my own attire,

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{cello}

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Grew on the bible, 

returned for survival, 

in between I was enlightened, 

so I find it hard to be so aware, 

and discard, 

reading changed words or reading none at all, 

Which is wiser? 

I prayed not to be a liar, 

then was led to Jeremiah, 

was scared to even spite him, 

but what is fear is not of God, 

I'm a conundrum, 

I feel lost, 

everchangin for the cause, 

religion just might have to pause, 

but peace is what I sought, 

somethin ain't sittin right, 

too close to the white man's site, 

within me, 

there's a fight, 

my spirit is like a kite, 

weavin in and out this life, 

on a path not os defined, 

on a path oh so divine, 

must respect my ancestral line,

breakin curses, 

overtime, 

your religion was never mine

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(Tiffany, I just wanna say...that I love you and don't ever ever change. Goodnight)

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(Humming) 

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You've seen how many tears I've shed, 

How many rocks I've tread, 

Don't get me wrong I'm blessed, 

but I'm tired, 

Undesired, 

{X2}

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I believe, 

God must be a black woman just like me, 

I believe, 

that my self expression was always meant to be free, 

I believe, 

that the God that represents me, 

is going to have as much grace, 

not bear fruit on the giving tree, 

I believe, 

My God to be forgivin, 

I believe, 

my god to be...

standing right there with me, 

braiding my hair, 

telling stories of, 

how...

this wasn't how it always used to be, 

I believe, 

that the Black women died at the cross of everyone's greed, 

I believe, 

I believe, 

she rose again, 

up from the ashes,

for all to see,  

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